december ends with r

five of them, actually

I’m writing to you from the blurry space between the winter solstice and new years. Ten of the darkest days with the highest concentration of holidays, each focused on bringing in newness and light. For me, this liminal space has also brought some much-needed r words. Yes, r & r… as well as r & r & r….

🌸 rest

For the past week, I’ve been on a holiday break from work, and I’ve slept 9 to 10.5 hours per night! I’ve also been relaxing on the couch a lot during the day. This is unusual for me, but it has felt generous to give myself permission to be utterly unproductive. Last week’s labs show that my new thyroid medication is way off, which is partially why I am so freakin’ tired, and I’m awaiting a new prescription. Meanwhile, I’m enjoying the darkness and rest. I’m loving my weighted blanket in bed. My kitties have been extra cuddly. Waking up naturally has allowed me to remember so. many. dreams. I’m paying more attention to my breath, consciously deep breathing with long, slow exhales…